What does this say?

What does this say about me?
How deeply was I emotionally fucked up by being raised in a southern baptist church?

Well, I just had a moment of realization.

Earlier today, I decided to become a performance artist. This is not a momentary, on a whim thing. I have decided fully, this is what I have always wanted to do.

I already have several pieces in mind. Actually a whole list, because (frankly) I have always wanted to do this, I just never knew it. It is amazing how quickly all the ideas I have had and stored away (not knowing where to put them) has started to come out of me.

Anyway.... to the point.

One of the pieces involves me getting booed off a comedy stage intentionally. If you don't get that, then go away. I don't want you anywhere near my website, or art. Just leave now. You will probably never get me, and it will only frustrate yourself to try and get me. *ahem.... anyway moving on.

So, I had another idea. I wanted to intentionally get not only booed, but thrown out of a church! A big church. I started to smile, as I thought this was funny and exactly the type of art I wanted to do. But then. I realized that I was afraid. Seriously. Stone cold, shiver down my spine afraid of being in front of a church audience. I however, am not afraid of being in front of an audience anywhere else at anytime. Nor am I afraid to be booed off a stage. This should show you how traumatized I am of the church setting.

Right about now, some person reading this is thinking, "that makes sense, an atheist feels uncomfortable even at the thought of being in front of a church crowd... That's because the holy spirit is telling him it is wrong. Praise Jesus!"

If you are one of those people, I would just like to say, go away. Don't ever come near my site again. You are a moron.